Long Lost Love

I have been inloved... No, what I mean I am inlove. I don't know, I can't say if it is recent or previous, past or before. But surely I know I still feel that way. I still have this feelings which I can't explain why, and probably I can't figure out how could it be. When I'm doing something that we're doing together I will pause and think of it, when there is words or stories that I heard that we heard before I will stop and take a look back, when someone ask me about my relationship I don't know if Im gonna say if we're good or we're done. Some times are hard to think of things that we used to do, I got frustrated, I feel guilty and regrets. But I admit that thinking of the past or what we had is the best time of my day, I still infatuated and inspired. Stupid I am to feel this way but what to do?? I can't help falling inlove.

-Letters from Octavious.

For Coffee Lover

"Hi, want coffee? 'Yes. Coffee'. Ahmmm what coffee you like? Cappuccino, laté, mocha, flatwhite??? 'No. Coffee'. ☺😊😀

My love... Some people call it simply Black, some are White when you put milk, popularly Americano, some says Home Coffee, Coffee Italia or whatever it is.. It's just the basic Coffee that you can love so easily.

Time goes by.... Cappuccino can be dry, Laté temperature can be high, Mocha layered should be tied, Espresso's bitter-sweet taste can't lie.  It's really hard to say goodbye.

If you really want to drink beer but your doctor stoping you, I suggest to drink coffee well I'm not a doctor but I know that, this is the best alternative, you should trust your BARISTA.

I am the coffee, and God is The Barista. Through me, he may awaken your soul. But the coffee knows not what flows through the mind of The BARISTA.

I want to say thank you for the wonderful Coffee experience. Though I admit that Im not good at everything and I'm still into flatwhite, ahahah no more practice but I can't hide that I really enjoy my Coffee Journey. To my colleagues, my friends and my batchmates... Till then. It's not the end, but I guest it's just a beggining.

Have a great day. ☺😊😀"

Truth

“Happiness is a journey, not a destination. For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.”

– Souza

Nasaan ka na?

"Habang lumalayo tayo sa isa't isa mas lalo kong gusto pang makilala ka. Habang nawawala ka, mas nadarama kita. Habang gusto kitang kalimutan, may mga bagay na nagpapaalala sakin sa'yo. Mga bagay na pilit ibinabalik yung masasayang sandali nating dalawa. Habang ikaw nakalimot na ako nandito parin. Hindi alam kung hanggang kailan parin kita mamahalin. Nakikiusap ako sa mga bituin kung maari pa bang makita ka, kung maari pa bang ulitin pa, kung maari pa bang makasama ka. Ayokong aminin sa sarili ko pero sobrang sakit na. Gusto ko ng bumitiw, gusto ko nang matapos lahat ng ito, nang sa ganon matahimik na ko, tayo.

- Letters from Octavious

Truth

“Happiness is a journey, not a destination. For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.”

– Souza

Should, shouldn't I?

"I will come back to you and tell you everything... That I can't live without you. That Im longing for your touch. That Im thingking of you every day. That I really want to be with you. That I wont give up until you didnt know about all of this. That I want to try. That I want to say yes. That Im afraid to loose you. That until now you're still here. That attached me from every things that we've done. That those things makes me feel guilty. That that time I should not let you enter. That now I could easily let you go. That's hurting me so much. That I cant understand why do I have to feel this way. That you probably sleeping right now and Im still thinking of you. That even a single words can't say how much you mean to me. That I miss your voice, your laugh, your tender kiss. That sometimes I realize what if I go and let this things happen. That I don't have to feel sorry for us. That I should have let you do what you want and I just have to accept what is true. That for us there is no love. That its like nobody's bones will be break by anybodys' sticks and stones. That it is all for the sake of oneself not for two. That me for you, and you for you. That I know that I can't love you. That's the truth."

-Letters from Octavious.

About God

If knowing answers to life's questions is absolutely necessary to you, then forget the journey. You will never make it, for this is a journey of unknowables, of unanswered questions, enigmas, incomprehensibles, and most of all, things unfair.

-Jeanne Guyon

I will have nothing to do with a God who cares only occasionally. I need a God who is with us always, everywhere, in the deepest depths as well as the highest heights. It is when things go wrong, when good things do not happen, when our prayers seem to have been lost, that God is most present. We do not need the sheltering wings when things go smoothly. We are closest to God in the darkness, stumbling along blindly.

-Madeleine L'Engle

God always answers in the deeps, never in the shallows of our soul.

–Anonymous

2 Months Love

I just realized that it's you who NEEDS me. So why I keep on seeking for you, your attension and your LOVE? Why the hell it all happen? That I'm very deffendent on what I feel for you, in a sense that I can't even close my eyes at night because I'm waiting to see what will happen during midnight till dawn and when I close it I imagining things that we used to do during those time. I can't understand why I feel so very insufficient for the two of us that's why you're doing this to me. Yeah I admit I expect to much to the extent that I give it all to you... Everything that I can give or should I say everything that you need. I am Partially incomplete because I don't have you here but I accepted it already, that you really don't care about us, about this whole thing about us, that I let myself to become stupid on believing on your last words that we can work it out, out of the boundaries we have and distance we had. Chance is the thing that we need and I think you know it from the first place but you let me take over as if I do know you and you knew that I will fall inlove with you and that's it! It happened. Like I sticks with our set-up without getting any conditions from you and you just let me be like this without asking if its really fine to me. I know. I know that I do have a lot of chance to open up with you when I found out what I really feel for you and its kinda wierd that I can't even try to speak out.

- Letters from Octavio

Security

Life in God's hands is what we called.. Security.

In any ways of living we're always looking for security, into something that we know no one can't harm us and someone who can protect us.

But believe that there is always SOMEONE in the heaven who is always there to sent all His angels to give protections. Someone who will give His all glory to make our lives easy, Someone who can take all our burdens, worries and hardships. Someone who will fix all the damages made by bad chances. Someone who can carry our feet and give us courage to step when it seems so hard to move forward. Someone who will lend His hand when we feel down. Someone who will wipe our tears when we are left behind by the people we love. Someone who is there when we have no one to share our happiness, Someone you can count on. Someone who will not act like you are mis-interpret or mis-understand.

Someone we can trust! And someone who knows who you are and never gonna judge you and will love you the way you really are. And that Someone deserves to be in our hearts. Forever.

On My Way, On My Own

Life in general is full of challenges, a mixture of adventure and has a trial and error system. It is sometime difficult to understand, but you just have to give the best out of everything to understand it the way it should be.

Fortune may come in our way so you just have to deal with it, don't let fortune deal with you. It may destroy you.

 Perseverance is all you need in pursuing one's dream. But lact of confidence matters the most.

Faith is your number one requirements in life. Believe in yourself and believe in your God.

First time in Dubai

October 11, 2014

When I first step in Dubai, mixed emotion. Nandun yung excitement at pressure at the same time. Siyempre I go here not just to visit Dubai but to work also.

This is a new venture for me, in different field and in different country. And most of all, another adjustment. I hope everything will be alright. May our dear Lord bless me always.

I owe all of this to my loving mother, sisters and friend. They are my strenght, they are my inspiration. The love of my life.



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